Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Ok I know this seems a bit late..but it's better late then never aye?!
[Wednesday, October 25, 2006]
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Syawal is gonna be here soon!!~~~~~
So here I am, studying, rushing through assignments and stuff
Apologies and don't expect frequent updates from me!
Exam is verrrrrrrrrrrrry near!!!~~~~
[Wednesday, October 18, 2006]
Sunday, October 15, 2006
Oh and it is scientifically wrong to say..
"Hey, that guy is sooo muscular...he must have a lot of muscle tissue!" (*droolzz*)
It should be..
"Hey, that guy is sooo full of actin and myosin in his muscle tissue!" (*droolzz*)
[Sunday, October 15, 2006]
Monday, October 09, 2006
Must think Positive!!!
If someone else can do it and get through this..I can too!!!
MUST PERSEVERE!!!!
Verily, Allah is with those who persevere and patient!!
Thanks to all who console me.
Also, a shout out to my mum who believed in me and told me not to give up!!
Thank you mum!! Without you I may have wilted long time ago!!~~~
[Monday, October 09, 2006]
Saturday, October 07, 2006
I am so depressed, couple with the time of the month, that I even thought of breaking the MOE bond, seriously. But I stop and think, I've waited for a year for this and just because I can't handle the assignments and other responsibilities, I wanna quit?!THIS IS SO NOT ME!! Maybe Allah is testing me in this holy Ramadhan. I can't even eat and drink properly as my mind is sooo like a spider web.
Mummy called me during class and asked for some cash as my brothers belum lagi gaji. Also, they are quite extravagant and that I have not been giving mummy cash. I was soo appalled and disturbed when I wanted to draw $100 bucks for mummy and my card declined me, and saw that I only have a few dollars in my bank. Ya Allah..
I went home, and mummy dropped another bombshell. Grandad (stepdad's side) is greatly sick and it seems to get worse, as he is very old, like 80plus. We pray that he can still make it through Eid and hoping that Allah will lengthen his life. ALl the more made me soo guilty if I were to go for the Indonesia research trip. Mummy related her financial problems to me yesterday, about she being unable to pay for my siblings fees. The main reason I can't help her because a large part of money I have paid for the Indonesian trip. I thought for like, 2 days and feeling feverish now and after lots of consultations from friends and even mummy herself, finally I decided to withdraw from the trip programme. I know I have disappointed everyone else but I am afraid I might be more stressed and be a bad team player in the group. Maybe I will be blackmark by other people and they will say that I'm useless and unresponsible but then again they are not in my shoes. And the thought of me going away when my family needs me most during the time of needs really disheartened me. No wonder at the start of last month, right after I joined the team, I felt that I shouldn't be with them. I apologise profusely to the team leader as I need to use the cash that I've given them, for my family. I reprimand myself for not thinking it thoroughly before joining and see what happens now? I have troubled a lot of people. God, you are really testing me
I am so touched to know that there are people around me who really care about me and I thought that they never even care about me!
A friend of me advice to salawat. Other friends who are in the same shoes with me, in terms of project assigments and same classes, adviced me to take one thing at a time and that I am not alone in school, we are all in it together. Those who I never talk to for a long time in MSN, suddenly msn-ed me and tried to cheer me up. Sometimes I am lucky but I just did not realise it.
I read somewhere that Allah will not give you or test you something, knowing that you will fail. He knows you can do it, but he wants us to REALISE that we CAN DO IT so that's why he is testing us.
[Saturday, October 07, 2006]
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Ok..since some of you since to love the videos..let me do a bit of intro
I was introduced by my friend..by the way this friend I saw before during my sec school during our debating days and was soo shocked that it is the same person?!!He was my debate idol last time..lol..
So this Abbas msn-ed me and gave me the link..and voila! I got hooked! I spent like 1hr overnight, watching all the 10 videos by Ali..felt awed and ashamed at myself too..this Ali will be releasing his 2nd season of videos which you can find easily at youtube.com (like where else kan?)..simply type 'ummahfilms' in the searchbar..or you can visit the main blog/web at ummahfilms.com
Ok here is another GEREK video!!THe ultimatum!!Regarding marriage dowry and is soooooo very relevant in Singapore's Malay and Muslim marriages' context.
[Sunday, October 01, 2006]
