Love is an intense insanity.

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

OfFiCially 19!!

At 0558 hours..I'm officially 19..haha..too bad I did not manage to wake up at 0558 hours..even missed my pre-dawn prayer..lol..so went to school..then meet up with Rad..she treated me to movies and food..we talked about..ehem..intimacy~~~~..lol..I was disappointed that not A SINGLE PERSON IN MY FAMILY wished me Happy Birthday..MayBe when I'm dead then they would start appreciating my dead date..some of my friends wished me though..and mu cuzzies..

[Tuesday, November 30, 2004]

Monday, November 29, 2004

FeW More hOurs To BeiNg 19..

LOL..today alvin treated me to Starbucks and bought me BBQ LAYS>>YUMMY..at PS..StiLL thinking wHat I'm gonna do tomorrow..hmm..

[Monday, November 29, 2004]

Sunday, November 28, 2004

The Inside of Moi MAC..Palette is called CRYSTAL GEM..

[Sunday, November 28, 2004]

MoI MAC $65..The CasinG is The OnE ThaT I'm CRaZy About..The Word MAC is mAde Of SWAROVSKI CRYSTAL..limited addition of Holiday '04..BouGht by myself..hehe

[Sunday, November 28, 2004]

The BoUqUET Of FlowerS..courtesy of Zammy

[Sunday, November 28, 2004]

ThE Made Over Eye..coutesy Of MAC's make up artist..hehe..

[Sunday, November 28, 2004]

My SamSung x430..

[Sunday, November 28, 2004]

1 More Day To My Bdae..

So today..went to my dad's place..for Hari raya..ALone..got some sarcastic remarks from my dad..he said "Oh nearing Ur bdae then wanna meet me ah"?then I just said Ok wat..I want Money cannot meh..Lol..they all laughed..so I got $50 for My GreEn Packet + BdaE present..I even told my dad.."aiyah..I want $100 liao..or may be even 1K ok wat.."..then they (my dad and stepmum) laughed again..haiyo..There's a new addition to the family..although not a permanent one..an orange tabby I think..kitten..named morning..My stepmum told me someone threw him away and the whole time keep meowing for people's attention under the void deck..sad..so my small bro picked him up..took care of it..but the cat's 'business' must be done outside..LOL>>..NaUGHTY cat..keep biting here n there..even bit my shoe..then met my zammy at orcahrd..to collect the rings..arrived like 1hr + late cos keep talking with my step mum..just said to her I need to go off because need to find a vase..lol..then the DAMN EXPRESS BUS..did not arrive on SCHEDULE!!and enede the day by giving my deary sumting that will 'stained' him for life..I guess..lol..*wink wink*

[Sunday, November 28, 2004]

Saturday, November 27, 2004

HaPPy AdVance Bdae To Me!!

ok so..today woke up..do housechores..cooked!!lol..my sambal was VERY HOT..it just did not taste rite lah..I fried the chicken then cooked them in sambal..then when out around 2pm to orchard road for my advance birthday treat..the reason we celebrated it today because my birthday fall on tuesday..which is a weekday..so my dear zammy could not meet me on tuesday..hehe..so first stop we went to CK Tang cos I wanted to buy this gorgeous MAC make up kit (picture later)that I saw from style magazine..for $65..and I received a treatment from the assistant there to put eyeshadow around my eyes the professional way with the chosen pallete of colours named Crystal Gem that she recommende..so on my eyes were shades of green, brown and light pink and eyelined with a green eyeliner..so daring and smoky..too bad I did not bring my camera cos I could not find it!Next we went to eat swensens..I ate Breaded chicken, fried mushroom and Chocolate freckels peak and he ate fish n chips and supposedly cookies n cream ice cream..but there is a BIG MIX UP with the waiters there and we ended up waiting and waiting and waiting..and ended up cancelling his while my ice cream arrived first..but I'm chasing my time (mum would be maaaaad at me if I'm late..which she had anyway..duuh)..but he did not mind (Thankg goD)..so I shared him mine..lol..

Next went for asar prayer..then to make up for his ice cream lost..we went to coffee bean and I drank pure choc and he Mocha..I wanted to eat a cake to feel the birthdayish feeling but coffe bean's cake is errmm..well..they may put rum or wine so I passed..then went to Blood Bros to chk out bag ..the nice ones were like 100++..GOSH..but he errmm..could not afford to buy for me (couldnt blame he lar..wink).. :o(..then went to gawk at nice shoes at Taka..then went to do our maghrib prayer..mum called me 13 times which I did not realised and anyway I just said I was i n the bus on the way to home..She insisted because the whole family was going out and she wanted me to follow..partly because she did not allow me to go out so long hours...DAMN!!i'M GONNA BE 19 SOON..WHAT DOES SHE EXPECT?CAN'T LET ME ENJOY ONCE IN A YEAR CAN'T I?anyway..after prayer..zammy went to buy me bouquet of flowers..hehe..

We then decided to buy new pair of rings at Bits and Pieces..thinner ones..and due to the engraving service..we need to wait for 30 mins..so I suggested that we picked up next day lar cos its getting late....the cute thing was..they even have choice of font type..lol..so I chose vanessa..and the price was 2 times lesser then the previous rings cos previous ones were thicker..and I lost mine..sad..at home..I finally found the camera..so I took pics..of my eyes..which was scary cos suddenly I was reminded of the show shutter..summore took pics with the lights off liao..took pics of my MAC make up kit..hehe..and took a picture of the flowers!!!I used a tumbler as a vase..place panadol and water..mix together..and place the bouquet inside..

[Saturday, November 27, 2004]

Friday, November 26, 2004

FunnY Day

As usual..went to school today..then at around lunchtime..got a call from JR..and I answered..duuh..partly because its fun answering calls from my new cellphone due to its NICE polytone..hehe..I even let it rang longer..lol..said he and Clar wanted to pick me and Alv up for lunch..so we decided to go to anchorage opposite Ikea..and they treated me to KFC..as a birthday present..lol..and I begged Clar to send me home cos my mum buzzed me to come early as we all be going out visiting to relatives house..and for the first time..my mum ironed my clothes for me!!!wow!!

[Friday, November 26, 2004]

Thursday, November 25, 2004

PamperEd WiTh My GooD mOOd..

Just got My samsung model x430 from amalie..the seller from yahoo auction..she came with her bf in a car..paiseh..and I sadly handed her the money..lol..the hp not bad..in good condition..then at night I downloaded this kewl tone from starhub Gee titled going under by Evanescence at $1.50..at that time didn't know can download from free from other website viz GPRS...then tried sending mms picture to myself at $1.50 also..and upload my pics online to be sent to my hp via sms at $0.50..hehe..even called starhub centre to activate my mms and GPRS..lol

[Thursday, November 25, 2004]

One Of My Fav MalaY Old Skool..

I'm going gaga over this song after A karaoke session at My fav aunt's place..

KitA SeRuPa bY HeadWind

Kalau dapat ku petik bintang di awan biru
Kan ku sematkan ke dalam dada mu
Kalau dapat ku capai bulan mengambang penuh
Kan ku hadiahkan di hari jadi mu
Begitulah janji ku kepada mu
Walaupun kau hanya menunduk bisu
Ku tahu kau terluka kerana cinta
Oleh dia yang tak setia

Nasib kita serupa
Bercinta dan kecewa
Mungkin dikau yang tiada menduga
Biar aku pilih mu
Mungkin dikau kan tahu
Betapa pilunya hati ku
Malah kau tuduh aku
Hanya menambah luka
Yang kini masih terus berdarah

Kita serupa... Kita serupa...
Hadir ku untuk mengubat luka..Oh..
Kita serupa... Kita serupa...
Walau pun hati ku pernah di kecewa

[Thursday, November 25, 2004]

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

Hoping For A HappY Ending..

Hello..Well..lots of things happened..Patched up back again with zammy..Into Malay oldies these past few days..Mending my AlMost Broken Heart..Feel More and More Insecure..and everyday the song kehebatan cinta and kita serupa keep looping in my mp3..can't help it after the 'almost' break-up thing..yesterday went to watch incredibles..here's wat happened;

-Asked zammy to go along but he watched it b4 and he having driving lesson's test

-Asked Rad To watch Bride and Prejudice but the listings are all screwed..and I can't go back too late at night..My mum would be suspicious..eheh..And Rad SIMPLY REFUSED to watch Incredibles..so I WatcH AloNe..Sad..
-Asked Nasuha along but she's too young to go to orchard and I have to be the responsible one..so I better avoid trouble..lol..
-Its raining cats and dog..and I FORGOT my umbrella cos it's in another bag..
-Went to cineleisure to get the tix for the 4.20pm show..
-Slipped and fell kneeling at Takashimaya entrance..but nobody laughed..who cares anyway..damn pissed because I'm more worried with my lappy..just scared that it did not banged onto the ground HARD!
-Bought velvet comfy slippers at URS for 29.90..the cheapest I can get..after I fell..but the thing was..I already determined to buy a new shoes even b4 I fell because the Shoe is KILLING ME..bad day to wear it because its brandless so it was slippery
-Bought an umbrella at $4.90 at watson..in a hurry to catch my zuhur prayer b4 the show starts..
-When on the way to the mosque..I realised the umbrella kinda spoilt..but not badly..URGHH..no time to go back to change cos I'm catching My zuhur prayer..luckily its only $4.90..but I still use it anyway..
-Arrived at cinema like 2 mins after the show started..oh well..I asked a small boy sitting beside me..lol..I was hoping that the commercial would be longer upon my arrival..but too bad..

And Today..At school our growing lettuce BOLTEd..it would not form the lettuce head...I think the lettuces want to grow to flower=sex..not to be eaten..awww...So our lecturer told us to regrow new batch and WE ARE GONNA START ALL OVER AGAIN..oh well..but this time we are going to grow 3 different varieties..and I met zammy's chat friend..I knew it all along it is her because she really resembled the person from his friendster's picture..and the jealous thing is that..he told me he liked her before meeting me..grrr....soooo many unknown gal pics in his friendster..I should be on my toes..*wink wink*..who noes he might have jessica, belinda and lily beside JANET behind my back..LOL..

Also..I bidded for a Samsunfg x430 but no camera though..sad..at yahoo auction..it is a brand new one..and I won the bid at $210 yey!!I chked out outside is more expensive..duuh..$248 from M1 shop..I might as well save some dollars by buying from the auction and the seller is actually A Ngee Ann Poly Student as well..and is a gerl...

Went to meet zammy at bugis to go to sim lim..bought CD-RWS for him to burn movies for me at $18...bought covered shoes at BArcode..Fuyooh..at $46..worth it..very comfy...OUHH!!and I tried thhe new beef bolognaise shepherd's pie at Delifrance..YUmmy..4.5/5 peepez!!till here..signing off..Ann..

[Wednesday, November 24, 2004]

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

Saad Days Ahead..

YesterDay..I watched the show Dalam HAti Ada CintA..SOOO SaD>>UmiE AidA NAnGis Aku pun nangis..basically the show was trying to show that Love NeEds Sacrifice..Sad..And this is the theme song..

KeHebatan CinTA by Francessca Peters and Jamal Abdillah

HATIKU MASIH SEPERTI DULU
TIDAK PERNAH PUN BERUBAH CINTANYA
ADAKAH ENGKAU MASIH SEPERTIKU
YANG SETIA SELAMANYA

HATIKU MASIH MERINDUI MU
BIARPUN KAU JAUH DARIKU
SELAGI RINDU MENGUSIK KALBU
CINTA KU MASIH PADAMU

TAHUKAH ENGKAU BETAPA HEBAT CINTAKU
TANPA MU DISISI AKU KERESAHAN
TAHUKAH ENGKAU BETAPA HEBAT KASIHKU
TANPAMU DISISI AKU KERINDUAN

BIAR PUN OMBAK MERUBAH PANTAI
KASIHKU TAK AKAN HANCUR BERDERAI
BIARPUN HARI BERGANTI HARI
KAU TETAP KU NANTI

[Tuesday, November 23, 2004]

Saturday, November 20, 2004

SIGH..

it's been 1 day since he left me..begged him not to let me go..but..

[Saturday, November 20, 2004]

Friday, November 19, 2004

SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING!!

The Art of Letting Go

It's over.

He's gone.

Why do we have to part while the love is still there?

Why do we have to suffer?

Why do we have to cry when somebody bids goodbye?

Why do beginnings have an end?

Why do we have to meet only to lose in the end?

There are questions left unanswered,

words left unsaid,

letters left unread,

poems left undone,

songs left unsung,

love left unexpressed,

promises left unfulfilled.

In a relationship,

one of the hardest things to do is saying goodbye

and letting go.

It is as hard as breaking a crystal because

you'll never know when you will be able to pick up the pieces again.

More often than not, they who go, feel not the pain of parting,

it is they who stay behind that suffer,

because they are left with memories of a love that was meant to be,

a love that was.

In letting go, sorrows come not as a single spy but in batallion.

It seems that everywhere you go,

everything you do,

every song you hear,

every turn of your head,

every move of your body,

every beat of your heart,

every blink of your eye

and every breath you take always reminds you of him.

It's like a stab of a knife, a torture in the night.

It's over.

He's gone.

But life has to go on.

[Friday, November 19, 2004]

Monday, November 15, 2004

My FiRst dAy..

Ok..so today was fun..I looK Damn Nice (yeah2..I'm flattering thy self)..but the scarf was kinda sucks cos the glitters all stuck to my face..anyway..that tudung will only be used when going out with FAMILY..cos with family got car..or should I say taxi..saw almost everyone..got quite a big amount of collection..hmm..better than last year..my dad and stepmum went to malacca..and my mum and 1st bro have not gave my hongbao yet..so end up I only collected around 60++..sad..gonna meet my dad on wednesday...going to my old school for a hari raya event on thursday..and heck when will I visit my Guy's house?!!..grrr..nervous..

[Monday, November 15, 2004]

Me and My MoTher..hehe..

[Monday, November 15, 2004]

Family Picture..On First day of hari raya 2004..

[Monday, November 15, 2004]

Me in da middle with my 2 sis on our 1st day of hari raya 2004..

[Monday, November 15, 2004]

Sunday, November 14, 2004

It'S HerE!!

SyAwAl..It'S presence marked the End Of RamAdHan..and today was sooo busy..luckily I'm errmm...having my 'holiday' so I am not allowed to fast.. ;op..so I did most of the housechores..And My House is looking FINEEEEEEEE..design a henna pattern for myself on my hand..and later will be busy placing the cookies into bottles..so for now..allow me to wish myself and everyone here a Happy Hari Raya!!

[Sunday, November 14, 2004]

Saturday, November 13, 2004

EID MUBARAK!!

EID MUBARAK TO ALL..MINAL AIDIL WALFAIZIIIN WALMAQBULIIN..

[Saturday, November 13, 2004]

Thursday, November 11, 2004

Long HOLS..

YeaH!..Long HolS AhEad,..but on the 3rd day of Hari Raya need to go to sch..and this Friday too!!!To have a last check on my babies(lettuces)..Sianz..Anyway...18 More DAYS To Being Sweet 19..;op

[Thursday, November 11, 2004]

Sunday, November 07, 2004

SaD..And ShOcKed

This Coming Syawal..will be the most memorable one..U can never know what's gonna happen to u the next second..that's what I learnt from my cousin who was the same age and gender as me..we were quite close when we were small..but as we grow up..we drifted further..as for her lover..I feel for him..to be left behind alone in a world without her..and as for her..to leave the world in a syahid way..in this ramadhan..the best of any month in 1 yr of Islamic calendar..and to think that it even fell on a night which is MUCH BETTER THAN ANY 1000 NIGHTS TO COME (Lailatul Qadr)..she is so lucky..as she is spared of any further sins in this filthy world..I just wished that I was the one to go instead..but think again...everynight I pray to God..should he want to call me back to his world..I asked only to take me after I've experienced real love..to be loved..to be a mother...to be a wife..to experience everything sweet things in life with my only love...because now..I do not have all those..YET...and after all those..I pray that Al-Jannah is the place for me..Amiiin~~..As for her..Rest In Peace..1985-2004..

[Sunday, November 07, 2004]

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

How TimE Flies~~

It'S Our 1 Year and 1 Month's aNNiversary..*wink wink*

[Wednesday, November 03, 2004]

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

WHY OH WHY!!

I fAiled MY BIOINFORMATICS 30% TesT!!!And IronIcaLLY..Our ClAsS Was The MoSt NumBer Of FaiLures..But I Did Not FAiL BadLy Lah..But STILLLLLLLLLL..its 33/70..ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

[Tuesday, November 02, 2004]

haizz

I'm Sooo Busy With My ProjEct...Like A Cat JumPinG around..!!

[Tuesday, November 02, 2004]

Monday, November 01, 2004

RamAdHan MubArak..

May AllAh BleSS Us AlwAys..

[Monday, November 01, 2004]

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